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Sunday, October 29th, 2006
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10:14 pm - Books.....
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I really need to start reading again, can anyone recommend any good books?
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| Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
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6:48 pm - A very good weekend
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This weekend has gone so quick! Whats happening, days are just flying by. Christmas will be here sooner than i can plan for!
Well yesterday was a very good day, apart from having to get up at 6am to go to work. But it was only for a few hours so icould happily put up with that. Kris picked me up from work because Betsy (my car) wasn't playing nice.
He dropped me home and stayed for a bit and tried to fix my car a bit but the rain soon put a stop to that. So he headed off home and left me to get ready to head back to his later as we were heading into town for a few drinks. Or so i thought... I got to his and a taxi was called to take us into town. We got dropped off outside the clock tower pub and went in for a drink which i expected, but after one drink Kris suggested we head to another pub. But when we left he started walking the opposite way, but he told me he wanted to say hello to an old friend whilst we were in town so i followed thinking nothing of it. Then he walks into Jingles, an amazing mexican restaurant and it turns out he had secretly booked a table for us! As it was 6 months this weekend since we got together and treated me to a lovely meal & cocktails. I couldn't believe it, it took me a while to speak because of the shock. No one has ever done anything like that for me before. I cant believe that i have met someone like him, i'm very lucky & very happy.
Today it hasn't stopped raining so we have spent the whole day snuggled up together watching dvds, best way to spend a rainy sunday i think. Shame its over really and im now back home on my own. Hate saying bye to him its not fair.
Anyway this is getting too soppy again so i think i will stop here. Hope everyone had a good weekend
current mood:  cheerful
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| Wednesday, October 18th, 2006
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8:27 pm - Overdue update
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Finally I have made it back into the world of LJ!
I have been away for far too long again, so i am sorry for not commenting etc, still a big thank you to everyone for keeping me on their friends lists :)
So what has been going on with me? Well to be honest not a huge amount, I am still working at the dentist. I am enjoying it slightly more than I did so I am happy to be there at the moment and to be honest im not going to get a job with as good hours and pay. So im best just putting up with it for the time being. Still im enjoying being there and thats the main thing.
I'm still with Kris, we have been together 6 months now and i am so happy. The happiest i have ever been infact. Its with being someone like him who is just amazing in every way i realise more and more how bad my past relationship was.
I love him to pieces and he knows it, you never know he might even be " the one " the way im feeling right now i wouldn't say no. Not told him that though i might never see him again!
We have been talking about moving in together after christmas, have been looking round at 2 bedroom houses to rent and there are alot of nice ones about in our budget. So hopefully it will all go ahead. I need to get out of my parents I am missing having my own space and to be honest only seeing Kris at the weekend is no fun. I miss him too much throughout the week. I just cant wait for the day when i can wake up next to him every morning. How soppy is all this sounding, but im just so happy.
Hmm what else? I have an amazing little car which is playing up a little bit at the moment. Its getting to the point where i am thinking about selling her, she is so unreliable in the morning. She is a 1971 VW Beetle. I would include a picture but i am having trouble getting images under a cut at the moment. Kris has been an absolute star with her, he has helped me out with her so much. He has had lots of old VW campers so understands how they run. So having a VW pro as a boyfriend has definately come in useful!
I cant believe we are half way through October already! Soon be Halloween! I cant wait. I love this time of year so much. I think the clocks go back either this weekend or next, then it will feel a lot more wintery with the dark mornings. I think its only about 9 weeks until christmas, i cant even start thinking about christmas!
Hope everyone is well and i hope to be around LJ alot more.
current mood:  loved
current music: AFI ~ Love Like Winter
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| Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
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7:30 pm - Kitty Video!
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I'm bored. So here is a video for you all. Enjoy!
You just know the little one was asking for it :)
current mood:  bouncy
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| Sunday, March 26th, 2006
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9:05 pm - I'll rise like the sun, I'll rise like the moon & I'll shine like the stars for you
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Im back again, this time though i think it will be for longer.
I am now back at home. I moved back yesterday. It all feels very strange to be back in one room when i have had a whole flat to myself for the past six months. I couldnt stay there though, no matter how much i wanted to. I just cant afford it. It was costing me a fortune as soon as i got paid i was left with about £50 to last me the month and with electric and council tax on top it was not good.
So i am back home for now. I'm probably going to stay for about 6 months or so and then if me and a friend are still in the situation we are in now we are planning on getting somwhere together. So that will be good if it happens, i expect she will be living with her boyfriend by then but we will see. So yeah the past week has been very busy and stresful i feel phsyically and mentally exhausted, i look awful too. I need to get me some beauty sleep!
Not alot has been going on with my life really, I thought i had met someone else but i haven't heard from him for a bit so its not looking good. I really like him too. Only went out with him a few times and i thought he liked me, i mean he did give me his old ipod after one date! Men suck. I hardly know him but i cant stop thinking about him, i hate it.
Also the other day which was very random, a guy who works in the garage opposite where i work came and asked me out for a drink and asked for my number! whats going on?!? So i gave him my number but haven't been out with him yet, dont know if i will either. As much as it sounds stupid i cant get the other guy out of my head. Again i say men suck.
Also got my hair cut a few weeks ago and i hate it, It looks awful. It makes me look about 40! so i am scraping it back into pigtails until it is long enough to look good again. So glad i can still tie it back or i might not go out. I had visions of it looking good but it doesn't. I have just had it cut into a funky bob but my hair tends to curl under when its short and thats when it makes me look really old. Still it will grow i guess, thats one good thing about it.
Hmm i dont know if anyone has heard of or plays 'the sims' Well i have gone and got myself addicted to a 'sim soap' that someone has created. I am actually getting annoyed because it hasn't been updated. I need help. I need a life. It is very addictive though, its got vampires, zombies, rock bands, demons n stuff. It is very good. If you get bored you should go check out, it will easily pass a few hours.http://deception-pass.com/index.html I have also found myself getting a slight obsession with one of the characters (Tristan) I really need help, still it passes the time. So yes go check it out and you can all get drawn into it aswell and make me feel less sad.
Also craving more tattoos, i need more ink and watching a series on sky called 'Miami Ink' isn't helping. Infact it is making me want more and more. I cant afford one though which i guess in a way is good. I will get one or two through the summer though i am sure of that. I desperately want one on my arm but i dont know if i am brave enough to do it.
Hmm yes started my new diet today, so will be updating on progress regualary. Hopefully i will start to see some results quickly, I couldn't believe it when i stood on the scales the other day and i saw how much i weighed. Thankfully it wasn't as much as i thought but its still way too much. I need to lose about one and a half stone or even two. Because i am so short excess weight just makes me look massive. So yeah im going to do something about it and im going to stick to it this time. It sounds silly but i would love to be able to buy a pair of jeans and not look ridiculous in them, and i love the skinny jeans but there is no way i would wear them at the moment. I have really abused my body over the past year or so from the amount of crap i have shoved into it, so im going to treat it properly, be more healthy and lose lots and lots of weight!
Hmm this has been a very random post but i just thought i would let people know that i am back!
current mood:  determined
current music: The Mission ~ Shine Like The Stars
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| Sunday, February 12th, 2006
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2:37 pm - I'm Back!!
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Well sort of but anyway yes here i am and i am making an update!
Feels weird but good to be back here. I need to update more, I always have the chance but never seem to get round to doing it, so from now on i will be.
Hmm so whats been happening with me? Not a huge deal to be honest. I am still at my flat but i will be moving out in 5weeks time. Coming back home for a bit. There is no way i can afford to stay there and its a shame. I love that flat and i love having my independence but i also like having money throughout the month so i can go out and have fun. Rent and bills are just eating away at all of that. So i will be back home for a few months to get some money together and sort out a few financial matters and then maybe look for a house share i dont know. See how it goes.
I still work at the dentist, have been looking and applying for other jobs though, i want to get out and have a change of scenery i think 18 months is long enough to spend listening to the dentist drill! I have been looking locally and a little further in Exeter but my heads all over the place at the moment and i just dont know what to do. I think just taking each week as it comes is the best thing.
Sim and i split up just after Christmas. Wasnt really a shock though. I got the impression that he was seeing someone else so i got distant towards him and soon after it ended. Learnt the other week though that he is now seeing the girl i thought he was cheating on me with. Just goes to show us girls are always right when it comes to men.
So i am single again and im enjoying it at the moment, the loneliness gets a little too much at times but apart from that im doing fine. I'm not looking to meet anyone else yet but if something happened i would object.
Not a lot else has been going on to be honest, my life doesn't get very exciting but im pretty used to that, heh.
Last night i finally got round to watching "The Phantom Of The Opera" Absolutely loved it! I want to watch it again. Definately need to get it on dvd, seen it on play for about £15 and that includes the sound track. Hmmm think i will be ordering that in a minute or two.
Hope everyone else is well & happy, sorry about lack of commenting but thank you for keeping me on your friends list :)
current mood:  chipper
current music: Goo Goo Dolls ~ Black Balloon
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| Friday, July 1st, 2005
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7:43 pm - I dont want to be just a loser
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I've decided that i cant keep depending on certain friends. They are probably getting sick of my constant messages asking to do stuff. They have other friends and a life and i feel like a pest constantly texting them.
I need to get out there and try and meet more people. Try and actually have a social life. What ever that is, its been so long since i had one i've forgotten.
I am determined to do it, i am sick of being stuck in the house by myself night after night with no one to talk to. No one to go out with and do stuff. Its really depressing. People keep telling me to get out there and meet people. I really want to do it but i'm quite shy around new people which can be pretty off putting. I need to stop being shy, i need to get out there and be someone that people want to know.
I have got the determination to do it, but its just getting started. Hmmm..i'll get there eventually.
current mood:  blah
current music: HorrorPops ~ Ghouls
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| Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
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5:17 pm
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HAHA! I was right, we have a storm!!
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12:23 pm - "I swear one of these days you're going to wake up in a coma"
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Haha I love Buffy! Thats all i have really been doing over the weekend. I'm slowly working my way through my box sets. Picking up all the funny one liners as i go.
Its slowly putting me in a better mood.
I have been feeling really blah and cranky over the past few days. Yesterday i think was the worst i was really pissy and snappy yesterday and i dont even know why i am being like this. I cant even blame it on being female. I think i might just blame it on the weather, it is way too hot and sticky. I think we are going to have another storm soon *fingers crossed* I love storms soo much.
I booked myself in for my next tattoo but they couldn't get me in until 2nd August! kind of annoying but still atleast i know i am in their book. Its nothing big, i'm just getting some stars on my foot and it is gonna hurt soo much!
I'm so bored!! I need more of a life, i hate spending my days off by myself :S
current mood:  bored
current music: Die So Fluid ~ Chasing Dawn
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| Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
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7:28 pm
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Ugh! Today was a long day.
I leave for work at 7:15 and get home at 6:45, I'm ready to drop!
I always get home about that time but today seemed soo much longer, really not in the mood for work at the moment. Roll on the weekend!!
current mood:  sleepy
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| Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
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2:43 pm
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I seriously need to update more!!
How hot has this weekend been? Its been torture. My shoulders are all burnt just from driving to Torquay and back *grumble*
My weekend was pretty dull, I couldn't motivate myself to do much which was my own fault really. I need to get out and socialise more. I have to stop being the quiet, shy one who sits in the corner and no one knows i'm there nor do they notice when i leave. I need to be more of a people person then i might have a few more friends and people might like me.
Thats the plan anyway. I wa nt to do it but its just making the first step that i am finding difficult and a little intimidating. Everyone around here has there own groups and they might not want anyone else involved.
Hmm other news, i guess people are probably getting a little fed up of me posting bout my weight loss but i like posting about it. It keeps me motivated. Well last week i did it. I lost my first stone! I am so chuffed so far i have lost 15 .5lbs so far. I have a long way to go but this is the most i have ever lost and i am starting to get a few compliments too which is always nice :)
Most Haunted live has been on again the past couple of nights, its the last one tonight and i think somthing really good will happen. With it being the summer solstice. I swear i nearly had a heart attack last night with all that heavy breathing that was picked up, Yvette didn't hear all of it but it was way too creepy! I am on my own in the house all week and once again i managed to freak myself out. I am such a wimp!
Still haven't seen Sin City yet. I really need to see it but i wont go by myself. Anyway wanna go? hehehe
current mood: chipper
current music: Tsunami Bomb ~ Dawn On A Funeral Day
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| Monday, June 13th, 2005
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5:09 pm - Hmmm why cant i meet someone like that? :P
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current mood: bored
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3:31 pm
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How does a crap day get any worse?
How about walking through a busy town and getting crapped on. So embarassing but luckily it was near the toilets and i had just bought some new clothes.
I dont think i am going out again
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Garbage ~ Why Do You Love Me
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| Sunday, June 5th, 2005
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7:40 pm
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I am getting too lazy with updating. Not that i ever have much to say i should do it more often.
The past couple of weeks have been pretty uneventful as ever. All i seem to do is work. Still i am happy with my job now so it doesn't bother me too much. Plus i only work three and half days a week, and get more money than i did working five. So i cant really complain!
I eventually got round to watching 'Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' this weekend. I think that has to be one of the best films i have seen for a really long time. It made me want to cry but made me smile a lot too. Kate Winslet and Jim Carrey are just brilliant. Would definately recommend it if you haven't seen it.
I have also got addicted again to 'The wedding singer' i love that film, hehehe.
I am heading back to the hairdressers again tomorrow. It feels like my second home! I am attempting to lighten my hair. I want to try and get back to being blonde and have a lot of black running through it. It will take a long time to do and my hair will probably end up falling out from all the bleach but i will get there! Probably gonna get it cut too, i cant grow my hair long it looks really tatty. Hopefully things will go to plan tomorrow *fingers crossed*
This weekend i have had the whole place to myself which has been nice. Kind of annoying i couldn't invite anyone round though! I need to get more friends. I have only had the cat and parrot for company all weekend. I think my kitty tried to cheer me up by bringing me a present, a sparrow :S not nice lol.
Things with my diet are going pretty good. I cant believe how much my attitude has changed towards food. I dont pick at food anymore and i dont want to eat crisps and chocolate. Which is kind of scary cos i used to be such a junk food junkie.
I have lost 10.5lbs so far which i am pretty chuffed with. Only need to lose another 3.5 to reach my first stone. The weird thing is i haven't noticed much of a change in my shape etc. I mean i must have lost it from somwhere!
The other day i bought myself some black 3/4 length trousers in a 10, i am going to make it my mission to get into them!
Hope everyone else is ok and had a good weekend!
current mood:  mellow
current music: System of a down ~ BYOB
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| Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
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12:27 pm
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My life is crap.
I'm crap.
current mood: blah
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| Saturday, May 14th, 2005
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7:38 pm
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I dont know whats going on with my moods at the moment. One minute i am happy and positive and then all of a sudden i slump into a kind of depression.
Lately i have been feeling more down and crap. Nothing seems to be happening in my life. It is so predictable i always know what i am going to be doing. I cant see that changing though.
I just have to face up to being on my own with only myself for company. I'm getting quite bored of myself and i think a lot of other people are aswell. People who i thought were my friends seem to be dumping me one by one, i guess i'm not cool enough for them. They have new friends and people in their lives and they dont want me anymore.
I want to go out and meet people but its been such a long time since i have been in a big social event, i get nervous and worry about it. Then i'm up tight when i am there and that makes me come across as grumpy and no fun and i guess thats why people dont warm to me.
I want to change i really do but i cant see myself getting anywhere round here.
Lying to people at work gets me down too. I have to say i have been out and done stuff sometimes otherwise they are going to feel sorry for me and i dont want there pity.
Maybe i should just stop moaning about it, and just face up to the fact that this is my life and there is nothing i can do about it. Its just gonna be me and my thoughts and no one else.
current mood:  depressed
current music: A Perfect Circle
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| Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
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10:22 pm
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Ok so at the moment i am feeling very confused about a situation.
I have liked someone for a very long time now but the last i heard he had a girlfriend, so i stayed away. When ever we saw each other looks were exchanged etc but i knew it could never be.
So the other day as i was walking into town i saw him again and our eyes met and they stayed like that until i walked past and then i was given a smile.
I dont get to go into town that often so this is probably the first time i have seen him since new year.
Its silly i know but i cant stop thinking about it now. I know i wont know until i ask or talk to him but i dont feel confident enough doing that. I dont want to come across as an idiot, heh. Mabe there is nothiing to it and i just want to meet someone that i am reading too much into it as i always do.
I dunno, it has just got me thinking again.
This weekend has been very dull. I am getting fed up of doing nothing week after week. Its no fun being stuck in by yourself. I am only 21 i should be out there living my life instead of wasting it.
I didn't lose any weight this week so i am pretty down about that, i guess i will just have to work harder. Still atleast i have lost some so far.
Ugh! this post is going all over the place, i think i better stop now before i end up rambling even more!
current mood: blah
current music: The Distillers ~ Coral Fang
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| Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
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3:49 pm
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O yeah for some stupid reason last night i ended up watching the worlds scariest ghosts caught on video tape. Afterwards i wish i hadn't. It was way too freaky! some of the pics they had when looked at properly were scary! they looked like rotting faces and watching that on your own at 1am is not a good idea. Must make a mental note not to do that again!
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3:12 pm
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I am so bored! it is getting so bad that i am almost wishing i was at work!! Not good.
I went out and bought myself a new laptop today, my other computer was old and ran way too slow! so i took advantage of the finance offer of paying for it next feb. Better start saving! it is so weird using it, i cant get used to it, the keys feel like they are in different places, but they're not - its just me being weird.
Went to my second weigh in last night, i lost another 2 1/2lbs so that 6lbs in total so far. Not bad for 2 weeks, kind of annoying that i had missed my half stone by 1lb. Still hopefully i will reach it next week. I cant notice a huge difference yet, but i have a long way to go yet. It is so easy though, one of the easiest diets i have ever done, there is nothing you're not allowed to eat so you're not cutting things out of your diet.
I am going to have an explore around my new computer, there is so much you can do but i cant figure out how to do it! me and computers dont mix very well.
current mood: bored
current music: Nightwish
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| Sunday, May 1st, 2005
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5:12 pm
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Just driven past the motorbike convention thats been in Paignton this weekend. Too many gorgeous men! Everywhere u looked there was someone amazing. I think i need to be a biker chick! haha
Would be fun though, traveling round to all these different places, if only i wasn't so scared of being on a bike, i might consider it.
It would make my life more interesting, i mean it cant get any worse than it is now!
I finally got my pay rise yesterday which is very good. I have been waiting months for that!
Not that i can spend it though, i have to start saving some money or i am never going to get anywhere. One good thing about being on a diet aswell is not buying any clothes. There is no point if i am hoping to lose the weight, so no shopping might keep my bank balance a bit higher that normal.
Oooh the new NIN album comes out tomorrow! I cant wait to get it, not that anywhere around here will have it, heh
current mood: bored
current music: Queen Adreena ~ Pretty Polly
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